It's been only 17 days and I still can not say goodbye. Everything still seems so not true. We are supposed to celebrate my b-day or try to again this weekend, but it will not be the same with out you there. It still hurts. I know you would say the party must go on. And so it will. I know you will be there in spirit. Everyone spoke about how you were the party and so many wonderful memories of you from so many different points of view. It was unbelievable the turn out at your viewing, and funeral. The get together at your house was great. Your parents had so much suport and they always will. We will continue to stop by every chance we get. Brianna still talks about you. She went and put flowers down for you and we all cried a little. She wanted to know when she can go to heaven to see you. It was so hard to explan that she can't at least for a long time, for now. She says she sees you once in a while now. She remembers your work and all the fun times. You have known her since she was born. I have known you 8 years. Jason forever and it will always go on. This is why I can't say goodbye. Everyone will always say if I only knew what was going to happen than things would have been different. I have so many things I wish I could change, but I can't. Living day to day will get easier but there won't be a day that you won't be missed with all my heart. You had a great story that will be told from many different views. Some funny, some sad, some scary and some embarassing. Some will be the same story told 30 different ways. None will every get old. You where loved very much and you always will be. So not goodbye but see you later, or as Brianna would say in our dreams.
Love,
Kristy
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